The heart asks a lot,maybe wants a lot,
but is in reality quite lost..
There are times when letting go is not a choice, it is the only option,
Yet the heart stops to let us think and pause,rather than ask one more question.
I wish I knew the solutions to heartaches and breaks,
There is no book that has the answers,
The twenties are all about losing and learning, but everytime a loss takes a toll,
Till you realise they are just chapters in your life’s scroll.
Maybe someday I will understand what and how,
For now I want to bury my head in a pillow,
sink in and sleep dreamlessly,
But reality waits to haunt me relentlessly
Sounds of silence fill my head
I know I cannot stop or loose myself yet, there is so much to do and yet the pain grips me and I wonder how much more can my heart break,
Maybe it will eventually heal and realise even this dark phase is and was not a big deal!
Till then I must control the urge not to cry or randomly break down,
I must control my emotions and not give in to sorrow,
telling and reminding myself there is a better tomorrow.
I must keep on doing all the mundane things of life,
Knowing only I have the ability to make a choice and stop my tears,
I cannot give in to uncontrolled fears,
Maybe someday this will be a passing phase,
In the chapter of life just another that remained unfinished and a maze.